My Bucket List

When you battle with periods of depression in your life, as I have lately, there are days and weeks and even months that feel empty. You try to fill life with meaningful things. However the nasty snare of depression takes things once meaningful and turns then into something... meaningless. Even the most wonderful things can feel hollow. The worst part is in your brain you tell yourself you 'know' this is supposed to be fun! It's something you enjoy! But depression robs you of those fond emotions you once enjoyed.

I don't intend for this to be a moody post however. In fact I would say, despite some bad days, I have been on the mend. Depression is beginning to relinquish the nasty grip it has had hold of me this past year, and I really just wanted to write down a list of things I'd like to do in my life, to say "carpe diem" and move forward to happier times.

So here, is a bucket list. To be edited and added upon to my liking. 

1. Go to Disney World

2. Own my own horse

3. Have a flower garden

4. Own a small farm

5. Have children

6. Be an audience member on a game show

7. Road trip the Pacific Coast Highway

8. Visit Europe

9. Visit the South

10. Be really good at breadmaking

11. See the Northern Lights

12. Take Nathan to Alaska

13. Have visible, good looking abs

14. Make quilts for all my favorite people

15. Make a family history book

16. Read at least 10 classic books

17. Take Nathan to a live musical/play

18. Go to the Tuacahn in St. George

19. Take Nathan to Goblin Valley and camp there with friends/family

20. Go to the Grand Canyon

21. Read all the Series of Unfortunate Events

22. Own a jeep

23. Graduate with a BSN

24. See Jim Gaffigan or Brian Regan live

25. Visit the Walt Disney Family Museum

26. Eat at Ruth's Chris

27. Go to Harry Potter World and drink a butterbeer

28. Visit a real live castle

Snowshoeing

Little Melon loves the snow. Maybe it's because he has never actually been alive during a summer, I don't know. 

It's hilarious to watch though, he loves to jump around and bury his head in it. He's so tiny and so occasionally he will jump into a particularly big drift and his whole body will disappear, and two seconds later he will reemerge, looking like a hairy snowman.

Nathan and I decided to go snowshoeing this past weekend and we took the puppy with us. He survived for about half the journey before he got so cold we had to wrap him up in a coat and carry him! Poor little guy.

Wish I had more photos to share but my phone died literally two seconds after this was taken.

I have to admit this was my first time going snowshoeing and I thoroughly enjoyed it. It snowed like mad and so as we were hiking big huge, fluffy snowflakes were falling slowly about us, landing on all the evergreen trees and frosting our noses. It was magical.

On a side note I have recently become obsessed with Jane Eyre! I watched the 2011 movie on netflix and fell absolutely in love and knew I had to read the book. Usually I find the old classics to be a bit wordy and difficult to read but I have been absolutely immersed in this book. 

I used to scoff at people who loved all the period dramas but I have to admit I am becoming quite a fan. I love how something so subtle, meant so much back in those times. Just a touch of the hand spoke volumes. I mean women and men weren't even hardly allowed to touch each other back in those days.

Now in this era people have to parade around naked to get themselves noticed. Hand holding has all but lost its meaning. Simple, innocent romance has been spat upon and degraded.

Shame, shame.

Now forgive me while I get back to reading Jane Eyre.

The Best of 2016

JANUARY

After what seemed like an eternity I graduated my LPN program.

...and ran a 5K in St. George with my Mom and Aunt Toni.

FEBRUARY

Passed my state boards and became a licensed nurse!

Nathan and I road tripped it to Arches National Park and familiarized ourselves with what our license plate picture looks like in real life. It was pretty cool.

MARCH

Easter party at Grandma Greene's. 

APRIL

Flew out to San Diego for Nathan's brother's wedding and got to go to Disneyland, my favoritest place in the whole world.

MAY

Nathand and I rode horses together out by Utah Lake and tried not to get eaten alive by bugs.

We journeyed to Logan and went to visit the Temple.

JUNE

Partied it up with the girls in Salt Lake.

Tara and Clark had their reception in my parent's backyard and I got to be the florist :)

...and it wouldn't be June without the Strawberry Days Rodeo!

JULY

We went to Kauai with my mom's side of the family and spent 10 days bumming around on the beach.

And fulfilled our lifelong dream of going to the Fiesta Days Rodeo with Ashley and Alex.

AUGUST

Almost got bucked off this horse, but I survived.

SEPTEMBER

Laguna Beach and Disneyland with all the girls.

OCTOBER

Camping up AF Canyon with our friends.

Had to say goodbye after nearly four years and three different titles (Therapy Aide, CNA and finally nurse) to American Fork Stonehenge! I made so many wonderful friends there and I will miss them forever.

Moved to Ogden and discovered the Burger Bar and their delicious fried mushrooms.

NOVEMBER

Thanksgiving in Driggs and a visit to Jackson Hole.

DECEMBER

Christmas in our new home :)

....and added a new puppy to our family!

Meet Melon the Puppy Dog

Whelp. Our puppy fever finally overcame us and we got ourselves a dog! His name is Melon. He's a pomeranian mixed with something else (we have no idea, haha).

He's the cutest little fluff ball that ever did live.

Awww, ain't he precious? I just love him.

I never did foresee Nathan and I getting a puppy but there's a lot of things in life I don't foresee that end up happening anyway, so here we are. I guess we are dog people now!

I got this strange desire to start embroidery over Christmas and so I've been working on all these little squares to turn into a sweet quilt eventually! I am pretty amateur but it's a very relaxing way to pass the time.

I feel like working as a nurse hurts my brain so much. I just need activities where I can come home and not exercise too much brain power. That's why I download mindless iPhone games like Farmville. It's my way of winding down. 

Also guess what! On December 29th Nathan and I celebrated our 4th anniversary! Can you believe it, FOUR YEARS. Wow.

We used to be such babies. Marriage has been one of the most challenging, but also one of the most rewarding things in life. I am so grateful for Nathan and all that he does for me. He takes good care of me and puts up with my sometimes difficult personality. He also loves me and I couldn't ask for much more than that!