When you battle with periods of depression in your life, as I have lately, there are days and weeks and even months that feel empty. You try to fill life with meaningful things. However the nasty snare of depression takes things once meaningful and turns then into something... meaningless. Even the most wonderful things can feel hollow. The worst part is in your brain you tell yourself you 'know' this is supposed to be fun! It's something you enjoy! But depression robs you of those fond emotions you once enjoyed.
I don't intend for this to be a moody post however. In fact I would say, despite some bad days, I have been on the mend. Depression is beginning to relinquish the nasty grip it has had hold of me this past year, and I really just wanted to write down a list of things I'd like to do in my life, to say "carpe diem" and move forward to happier times.
So here, is a bucket list. To be edited and added upon to my liking.
1. Go to Disney World
2. Own my own horse
3. Have a flower garden
4. Own a small farm
5. Have children
6. Be an audience member on a game show
7. Road trip the Pacific Coast Highway
8. Visit Europe
9. Visit the South
10. Be really good at breadmaking
11. See the Northern Lights
12. Take Nathan to Alaska
13. Have visible, good looking abs
14. Make quilts for all my favorite people
15. Make a family history book
16. Read at least 10 classic books
17. Take Nathan to a live musical/play
18. Go to the Tuacahn in St. George
19. Take Nathan to Goblin Valley and camp there with friends/family
20. Go to the Grand Canyon
21. Read all the Series of Unfortunate Events
22. Own a jeep
23. Graduate with a BSN
24. See Jim Gaffigan or Brian Regan live
25. Visit the Walt Disney Family Museum
26. Eat at Ruth's Chris
27. Go to Harry Potter World and drink a butterbeer
28. Visit a real live castle
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UM I love this list. You can totally do all of these things!! I'm rooting for you.
ReplyDeleteLove your list! I made one a few years ago and when I looked at it last, I had done a lot of the things I wanted to do. But it got me thinking that sometimes Heavenly Father surprises us with experiences that we would never dream up for ourselves. Wonderful moments. Things we never knew we even wanted. Those are my absolute favorite. I'm excited for you to start crossing off your list! (And for all the other good things that will happenin your future too) xoxo
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear about your struggle with depression, but I am glad that things are slowly getting better for you. I Loved reading your list! I think a family history book is a wonderful idea. My great aunt made one that sits on a shelf at my grandparents house. I love looking through it and seeing my great grandparents and their family. My mom's mom died when my mom was a little girl and I love comparing her pictures to my own kids. I also love the idea of owning a little farm. This post has inspired me to write out my own bucket list. :)
ReplyDeletei have grappled with some very mild depression a few times in my life, i really trying to glean joy from small things was something i always tried to do - so i am loving this list! it's so inspiring. so many good bucket list items! (alaska is amazing, so is HP world and the PCH and ruth's chris!!!)
ReplyDeleteJust catching up on your blog. Love you to pieces. It's fun knowing you've already crossed some of these things off your list! Thanks for the inspiration to pull mine out and rethink it.
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