Things I Miss Desperately

• walking into a quiet, clean apartment, a space all my own
• youthful, naive optimism
• wide, open spaces where the wind is visible in the subtle swaying of the weeds
• thick snowflakes falling silently to an untouched blanket of white
• Grandma Crompton and the constant smell of Downy that always came with her
• lack of awareness of age and time 
• no smart phones
• the magic of something experienced for the first time
• not feeling desperately exhausted and unhealthy all the time
• time, just time